CH.5 Night Blossoms
Ch.5 Night
Blossoms
I grabbed my favorite grey cloak
and rushed to follow Adrian to the garden. I wasn't sure why I was so eager to talk to him, but lately I had found myself savoring every moment that I spent with him. I suppose he was still a stranger to me, but I had felt like I had known him all my life. Once outside,
he guided me to my favorite spot under the bare cherry blossom tree. The frigid
winter air made me feel alive and awake and I sat there for a moment, enjoying
the feeling of it on my skin. I thought of how far away last summer, the summer
that everything changed, felt. I wouldn’t change anything ever, not for the
world. Dilan had since left with his parents, Adrian staying due to my mother’s
push. Max would be leaving soon to be married. Snow flurries began dusting the
ground and I leaned my face back to enjoy the sensation of ice on my skin. I
stole a look over at Adrian, who was doing the same, looking blissfully happy.
I began to laugh.
“Winter is so beautiful isn’t it?”
He said, continuing to lean toward the sky.
“Most people think I’m utterly
insane when I tell them it’s my favorite season.”
“I don’t blame them; you are a lot
to handle.” He said, winking.
I playfully shoved him, losing my
balance in the process. He caught and steadied my weight against his, our noses
inches apart. We stayed that way, lost
in each other’s thoughts, our breath fogging around us.
“Hello.”He breathed, a glimmer of a smile playing on his lips.
I quickly moved back to where I was
sitting, my face burning.
“Sorry…” I whispered.
“No need to apologize…” He said,
still staring.
“Is there something wrong?”
“Oh…no…nothing…” He blushed, making
me laugh.
“My hands are freezing; I wish I had
brought my gloves.” He clasped his hands around mine, in an attempt to warm
them.
“Your hands are so small…” He said,
absentmindedly running his finger over the scar on my palm.
“Your hands are so large…” I
grinned up at him, the moonlight causing his eyes to become bright and
beautiful.
“Your eyes haven’t changed yet; it
will only be a matter of time…” Adrian was studying my face now, as if trying
to take a mental picture to save forever.
I continued to stare up at him,
taking in all of his features. His lips perfectly pink against smooth light
olive skin, his hair such a dark contrast to his light eyes. He was simply…
“Incredible…”
“What?” his lips formed a teasing
smile, as if pressing me for the context of my thoughts, though I knew he could
already hear them.
“What’s the point of even having
thoughts around you if you just listen to them?” I was teasing of course, but
there was some truth to the statement.
He seemed taken aback by my words,
his face looking slightly shocked, then grinned mischievously.
“It’s more of a burden than you
might think. It takes lots of practice to tune in to the ones you want to
listen to, all the while trying to listen to your own thoughts.” He continued
to clasp my hands in his own, something that I surprisingly enjoyed.
“What are your own thoughts saying?” I was genuinely
curious; otherwise I would have stayed silent.
He cupped my hands in his face,
staring into my eyes before gingerly planting a kiss on my unsuspecting lips.
I knew what was coming before it
happened. My vision tunneled for the second time that night and I prepared
myself for the next memory, eager to learn a piece of my past.
When my vision cleared I was
standing on an all too familiar spot on the beach. This time I was 15 and it was
dark. It was a stunning night, clear with all stars glowing brightly, the moon
full and the waters sparkling. As I watched, a boy came into view, the scent of
night blossoms drifting towards me. The eyes were hard to miss glinting in the
moonlight, as if he had been born with stars instead.
“A little late for a trip to the
water isn’t it?” Adrian said, never taking his eyes off me.
Meanwhile I continued to
thoughtfully watch the tide roll and retreat back into the dark sea.
“I couldn’t sleep.” The wind
rustled my hair ever so slightly.
“Neither could I.”
“Do you ever get sick of it?” I
turned to face him.
“Of what? Life? No.” He was
watching the sea now, as if considering jumping in and drifting away.
“But it’s a great deal more
difficult for you than me…How do you do it?”
“Well. If I smiled more I would say
that the trick is to grin and bear it but…judging from what people seem to
observe I guess I don’t do that much.” He smiled to himself, which just as it
did in present times, caused my younger self to smile as well.
Adrian took my hand and traced the
scar just as he had done previously.
The memory was beginning to confuse
me. None of it made sense. Why was it Adrian comforting me, not Dilan?
And then it happened. He took my
younger self’s head in his hands and planted the same kiss on my lips. Suddenly
I understood, partly at least.
The memory began to fade away and I
was back in the present.
“It was you…never Dilan…All those
memories I have they were with you…”
Relief flooded his face, his eyes glinting with joy. It was as if my revelation seemingly absolved some of the burden that he always carried.
“You remember.”
“Why did you do that to me…Why did
you replace all those memories with ones of Dilan. I didn’t love him at all…”
Why
would he hurt himself like that…
“I had to leave you. Soon after
that. I didn’t want you being in danger or unhappy because I couldn’t be there
to protect you. You had Max, but even he knew that this would be best for your
family. I couldn’t have anybody knowing
that we were jointly connected, so I had to sever the connection. Dilan, who
has always loved you, was the perfect candidate for replacing your memories
because at least then it as someone nearby who cared about you. It hurt me so
badly to see you that way, but I didn’t have a choice. I would rather you be
safe and not remember me than dead unable to be here at all.”
All I could do was hug him. I
breathed in his scent, one so familiar now it hurt to think of it missing.
His fingers stroked my hair, running through the thick tresses.
“You’re back…” He squeezed me
tighter, as if I might slip away if he released his grip. I didn’t mind, it had
been years since I had really talked to him, much less touched him. My lips met his
and it was if my heart had been unlocked. He was my person and I finally had
him back.
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