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Hey all,
Long time no read my homies. A lot has been going on with school and everything. Anyone who probably keeps up with my blog is probably like man, she's always busy; she always starts her posts the same way. That's just how my life is and that is just kind of the person I am. I like to be doing stuff all the time, my mom even jokes sometimes that she swears I have some sort of hyperactivity disorder because I'm always moving. Anyway, this post is mainly an update post covering the books I am currently reading and some other stuff that I just wanted to get out there. :)
So I am currently (and almost finished with yay) A Clash of Kings in The Song of Ice and Fire series by George R.R. Martin, which are known to most of the public as "A Game of Thrones". With season 7 now out, I decided that maybe it was time to return back to these books. I kind of took a break because I was interested in reading a lot of the newer books that had just come out in my favorite series. I am actually hoping to have this one finished by the time Tower of Dawn is out, which I definitely plan on getting my hands on as soon as possible. Hopefully, I'll get my blog post out on that particular book fast. Anyway, that is why it basically took me like 4 months to read the book. I actually started it while I was still a junior at the end of the year and put it on hold. I actually read like 13 books this summer.
I know, I need a social life yadda yadda yadda.
Actually part of the reason that I read so much was because C went away. Right now, he is actually doing a lot better than he was. The first week was really rough on him, but now everything has kind of settled out. Our relationship is alright. I'm actually feeling a lot of strain right now, personally, just because we've never been apart very long. Honestly, the longest we weren't in the presence of each other was when he went to the Dominican Republic in South America two years ago for a week and a half. It's been about 2 and half months though so I'm actually pretty healed. Not going to lie, hearing your best friend is leaving to not only go 800 miles away but also place himself (especially now with so much unrest around the world) in a position that may eventually place him in harm's way where you can't protect him, is extremely heart breaking. We wrote a lot of letters to each other which actually offered me a lot of comfort, as it did him as well because he could hear from me.
Something that I've learned from all this is that the most important thing is having trust. I honestly trust him with my full heart. Maybe that's because I've been his best friend for nearly 5 years now or because I just feel that way. I'm not really sure. Recently, I've been struggling though, just because it was the first year that I had to start school without him around me all the time. He had these small ways of making me laugh that got me through the hard and stressful days, which last year had plenty of. It definitely is a change not having him around and to my access 24/7. You might think I am exaggerating when I say that, but honestly he was always there for me. I could text him at 1 AM when I couldn't sleep and he would wake up just to talk with me. C is truly the greatest friend I could ever ask for, which makes its hard to explain that he isn't just my boyfriend. He is actually so much more than that, and I attribute the happiness I've found with him for numerous years through numerous traumatic experiences (he had an...interesting family life to say the least) to the fact that we were friends first, family second, boyfriend/girlfriend last. I know that might be weird to some people but it definitely created a strong base that kept us standing when some of the walls were cracked or needed repairing.
So I guess that's also probably what makes seeing him have his own independent life without as much reliance on me a hard thing to take in. But I've been working really hard on bettering myself and taking a more caring approach to the life around me. Another thing that I must stress if any of you or just anyone in general is thinking about pursuing a very long distance relationship (I mean like 1000 miles not like an hour "long" distance relationship) is that patience is so so so important. That was something the hit me hard. After the first two weeks I was already antsy. Now when I think about it, it really wasn't that long. Two months isn't even that long in retrospect. But when you're just waiting to see someone again it feels like a literal eternity. It sucks. I'm not going to sugar coat any of this, even though some people that know me personally think C and I's relationship is perfect. It isn't and there was a fair bit of ugly crying. There still is sometimes. And while some great photo ops and just great opportunities will come of this, it is definitely hard and nothing to rush into. It takes a lot of work for things to go smoothly. And there will be sometimes when you'll be talking to your person and wonder if you even know them anymore. Trust me you do, people do change though. It's up to you to decide if you'll let a few new interests interfere with the relationship.
Sorry I went a bit off topic, but I hope that gives some insight to who I am. I feel like it's important that a blog has a personal touch.
More to the subject of books, I'm going to try to have A Clash of Kings finished by the time SJM's new book comes out (another thing I have had to wait for haha). Hopefully, schedule depending, my newest book review will be out soon. If you have anymore questions, feel free to comment and hit me up on my Tumblr @magicalbooksandthings and leave an Anon.
In case y'all are wondering here are a few pics of what we look like:
Long time no read my homies. A lot has been going on with school and everything. Anyone who probably keeps up with my blog is probably like man, she's always busy; she always starts her posts the same way. That's just how my life is and that is just kind of the person I am. I like to be doing stuff all the time, my mom even jokes sometimes that she swears I have some sort of hyperactivity disorder because I'm always moving. Anyway, this post is mainly an update post covering the books I am currently reading and some other stuff that I just wanted to get out there. :)
So I am currently (and almost finished with yay) A Clash of Kings in The Song of Ice and Fire series by George R.R. Martin, which are known to most of the public as "A Game of Thrones". With season 7 now out, I decided that maybe it was time to return back to these books. I kind of took a break because I was interested in reading a lot of the newer books that had just come out in my favorite series. I am actually hoping to have this one finished by the time Tower of Dawn is out, which I definitely plan on getting my hands on as soon as possible. Hopefully, I'll get my blog post out on that particular book fast. Anyway, that is why it basically took me like 4 months to read the book. I actually started it while I was still a junior at the end of the year and put it on hold. I actually read like 13 books this summer.
I know, I need a social life yadda yadda yadda.
Actually part of the reason that I read so much was because C went away. Right now, he is actually doing a lot better than he was. The first week was really rough on him, but now everything has kind of settled out. Our relationship is alright. I'm actually feeling a lot of strain right now, personally, just because we've never been apart very long. Honestly, the longest we weren't in the presence of each other was when he went to the Dominican Republic in South America two years ago for a week and a half. It's been about 2 and half months though so I'm actually pretty healed. Not going to lie, hearing your best friend is leaving to not only go 800 miles away but also place himself (especially now with so much unrest around the world) in a position that may eventually place him in harm's way where you can't protect him, is extremely heart breaking. We wrote a lot of letters to each other which actually offered me a lot of comfort, as it did him as well because he could hear from me.
Something that I've learned from all this is that the most important thing is having trust. I honestly trust him with my full heart. Maybe that's because I've been his best friend for nearly 5 years now or because I just feel that way. I'm not really sure. Recently, I've been struggling though, just because it was the first year that I had to start school without him around me all the time. He had these small ways of making me laugh that got me through the hard and stressful days, which last year had plenty of. It definitely is a change not having him around and to my access 24/7. You might think I am exaggerating when I say that, but honestly he was always there for me. I could text him at 1 AM when I couldn't sleep and he would wake up just to talk with me. C is truly the greatest friend I could ever ask for, which makes its hard to explain that he isn't just my boyfriend. He is actually so much more than that, and I attribute the happiness I've found with him for numerous years through numerous traumatic experiences (he had an...interesting family life to say the least) to the fact that we were friends first, family second, boyfriend/girlfriend last. I know that might be weird to some people but it definitely created a strong base that kept us standing when some of the walls were cracked or needed repairing.
So I guess that's also probably what makes seeing him have his own independent life without as much reliance on me a hard thing to take in. But I've been working really hard on bettering myself and taking a more caring approach to the life around me. Another thing that I must stress if any of you or just anyone in general is thinking about pursuing a very long distance relationship (I mean like 1000 miles not like an hour "long" distance relationship) is that patience is so so so important. That was something the hit me hard. After the first two weeks I was already antsy. Now when I think about it, it really wasn't that long. Two months isn't even that long in retrospect. But when you're just waiting to see someone again it feels like a literal eternity. It sucks. I'm not going to sugar coat any of this, even though some people that know me personally think C and I's relationship is perfect. It isn't and there was a fair bit of ugly crying. There still is sometimes. And while some great photo ops and just great opportunities will come of this, it is definitely hard and nothing to rush into. It takes a lot of work for things to go smoothly. And there will be sometimes when you'll be talking to your person and wonder if you even know them anymore. Trust me you do, people do change though. It's up to you to decide if you'll let a few new interests interfere with the relationship.
Sorry I went a bit off topic, but I hope that gives some insight to who I am. I feel like it's important that a blog has a personal touch.
More to the subject of books, I'm going to try to have A Clash of Kings finished by the time SJM's new book comes out (another thing I have had to wait for haha). Hopefully, schedule depending, my newest book review will be out soon. If you have anymore questions, feel free to comment and hit me up on my Tumblr @magicalbooksandthings and leave an Anon.
In case y'all are wondering here are a few pics of what we look like:
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